Saturday, December 22, 2007

Christmas is coming and I am strange :)

Enjoy the silence. This is what I am doing now...

It's almost Christmas and I am in...tananana: Bucharest... I think I am the only non-Bucharest citizen who is still here... But tomorrow night I will finally leave... Actually it was my decision to stay here and to enjoy the silence (yes, if you can imagine, Bucharest is more silent than my home in Oradea). I didn't want to hurry up and not enjoy all the decorations and the empty city (yes, because today Bucharest was empty) and travel without being crowded by too many people.

And another reason is because Ale came today and we had a meeting with all the girls, exchanged presents and talked for a while before Olivia and Cata went to their hometowns. And it was very nice to be back again all 4 of us.

I realised that I have no wish for Christmas, no letter to Santa, nothing... Will Santa surprise me this year? :) I hope so...

I'm still in a very good mood: I am looking forward to Christmas (with my friends, my mom and my dog - most important because we celebrate it every year since it was my gift 5 years ago) to the New Year's Eve (in the other part of the country, in the middle of nowhere, but with dear people close to me), to the elections (although I have to admit I am nervous), to my trip to Vienna (yes, again, and it's not even the only one planned :) ) to the new year that is in front of me...

Positive (unusual),
Moru

p.s.: Happy holidays!

Sunday, December 9, 2007

Heaven and hell on Earth...

... both in the same week.

In the beginning of the week I realised how short life can be, and how your days are counted backwards from the moment you are born.

Although you can dream yourself being old, with your grandchildren in your hands (for example), it can change in only one minute... And my question is "why people are punished without having any fault?"

I visited a hospital this week... A hospital for children... Children who are dieing and who were not even given the change to be guilty for something in their life.. And it is terrible how your days can be counted not in decades but in years or even months or days, from the moment you are born because of a cruel disease.

At the same time, this week, I saw children who were given other chances, due to my colleague, Diana, who is part of a children choir and she invited us to a concert and the first feeling I had was that I was in heaven... Crystal clear voices started the magic moments and I was amazed during the whole concert. I remembered the moments when I was also singing in the choir and I remembered the feelings I had back then. Congratulations Diana for being passionate about music and for not giving up no matter what.

I am at home and I am still thinking about the chances each child has, about how not fair is life sometimes... And all I can say is "thank you" for being given the chance to live my life, my dreams... for being healthy.

Moru

Monday, December 3, 2007

NPS 2007...

I don't even know what to say and I don't even know what to start with.. So although this should have been a huge post, it will be a short one :)

It was great, great, great :)

I had a lot of fun, I met new people and I got the change to get to know better the newies from Bucharest (and not only).

I slept only a few hours per night but I didn't feel tired (except for the last night when I was very very random and I felt I could not keep myself together at all). I started with my Red Bull collection but in the end it was only me and my desire to stay awake :)

I had a challenging home group but I managed to adapt to their needs and wishes and it was fun. Different people, but very very nice, as a whole. People from @ BU but also from Iasi, Brasov, Oradea, Cluj, Pitesti and other LCs.

I relised that I love @BU and actually it was even painfull when during the FISH session I had to stay with another LC, because my first instinct was to go to @ BU delegation.

I remembered my first NPS and all the cool moments and memories that I have since then... I never forgot the wine on the roof, the FISH session, me skipping the "Single beggar, double beggar session", me sleeping during the whole night :) , "say we are @Bu" shouted with all my heart, the roll call, the journey to Amara, the badge and the map of Macedonia, the burning chocolate candies, the "wow" and many many other feelings that I had back then. And of course I never forgot my favourite picture :)

I am happy and this can be seen on my face :)

Moru

Sunday, November 25, 2007

NPS 2007 - before leaving

I'm on my way to the National Conference... Actually I will leave tomorrow but I am about to leave my appartment "armed" with my huge luggage :)

I cannot wait to see how it's going to be.

Wish me luck.

Moru

Monday, November 19, 2007

PwC, new members , LTS and confusion...


The past weeks have been full...

Two week-ends before I was in Warsaw, at the conference I was telling you about before with PwC and it was really really cool... I don't even know what to rank first: being delivered trainings by PwC, meeting a lot of Finance people or the fact that I enjoyed travelling alone again :) (I might skip the travelling part because again I had a plane phobia, with all the medicines that I took before the trip). Yes, so what to choose? I cannot say, but all in all, it was a good experience that I really needed. I had a lot of fun, I met new people and I met people that I knew before but did not expected to see them there (Dan, ex-LCP of @ Timisoara - whom although I did recognise I thought it is only a coincidence :) and Ahmed - delegate at ITC 2007 in Bucharest)


Returning back to Bucharest I went straight to the new members' final selection and although I was tired and felt pretty weird I decided to be there... You can see the "result" in the picture attached: the new members from the Finance team: Alina, Constantin, Diana B, Diana T and Patricia. Today we had our first meeting together and it was really cool :)



LTS 2007... I could call it a conference full of surprises: from myself... I finally got to know all the members from my team (because I was not present at the final interviews), had some nice sessions with them (with the help of Olivia) and experienced for the first time in my life (I think, or at least I don't remember another time) sleeping one hour during the night (but I will never do it again) and sleeping in the most weird place until now (I usually sleep wherever I feel I am sleepy - office, concert, meeting- but this time I slept during a working group... shame on me, but luckily there were only 5 minutes)... So I will never do the same mistake again. I promise :)

But with all these interesting past two week I still have no ideea what I wish at this moment... and I feel really confused: by people around me, by feelings, by wishes and especially by the future...

Should I follow my heart? Should I follow my mind? Should I be adventurous? Should I choose something "secure"? Should I stop asking myself? Should I talk? Should I shut up? Should I write? Should I keep this for me?

Most probably, I should stop asking myself because I realised that this is the only thing that harms me... I questioned myself a lot during the past month(s) and the only thing I succeeded in is being more confused, and each answer leaded to another question... And I don't see the end of this circle that stops me from going in the right direction.

I hope tomorrow will be better...

Moru

Sunday, November 4, 2007

Outdoor weekend in Brasov

This weekend was the second one in the probation period for the future newies of @ BU and although I drove them crazy with "we are going to Moeciu" actually we spent it in Brasov...

Being there meda me think about my probabtion period and some memories came to my mind during the weekend while things happened just the same way...

During the party two years ago I remember I called Ale (VP Finance at that time) outside to talk about the budget for the event I was organizing as a task in the probation period... I don't remember her exact words but she told me something like "relax, we can talk tomorrow.. now it's a party"... and I was upset :)

This year: the same situation with the girls are organizing this year Alumni Party... And during the party we were doing the budget :)

It was a nice weekend althogh I freezed because I had to stay the whole afternoon in the dark at one of their tasks in order to find the "treasure"... But it was funny to see how people acted during that day... We saw fights, we saq frustration but also we saw people who enjoyed everything...

During the evening I was sooooo sleepy that yes, as usual I went to bed early... just that not in my bed (which was 15 minutes away)...

I realised that I have these moments when I just feel I need to do something... And it also happened that night.. Did it ever happen to you to wake up before the clock started to ring? Well, something like that. At 4:15 on saturday night I just woke up... I might have scared all the people in the room, but headed straight to the door and went downstairs, where... all my colleagues were ready to leave for our sleeping location... Strange that I felt that, especially during sleep...

Another strange moment like this was last year during a party when I switched off my mobile and put it in my jacket in another room... And at a given moment just headed to the mobile, turned it on and there it was a message for me... A message that made my day because I read it at the right moment... although I was planning to keep my mobile switched off and enjoy the party...

Although the weekend was very exhausting and at the same time very empowering, I came back home with a headache... And although I slept last night 11 hours, I went to bed again, because I was not feeling right.. And guess what? The phone started ringing like crazy, but it did not matter... Still a phone woke me up and ruined my sleep and now I cannot sleep anymore (it shouldn't be a tragedy because it is 10:30 but still...)

I hope that finally the week will start with a good sleep...

Moru

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Karaoke session... and good news...

Sunday was a funny day... in the end...

Although I start each application form when it is released, I usually finish right before the dead line... but last week it was wore that I could imagine :)

I had to tape a 2:30 minutes movie... Simple right? Not when the words "2006 and 2007" don't come out right :) And not when you have to do this alone... It was like "on".... "Hello, bla bla bla.... mistake... shit"..."off"... For a long period of time just like this... And the movie turned out too be very dark... Why? Well I tried to get rid of the curtains from my window, but... I forgot to turn on the light :) In the end, the output was a 137 MB movie... 2:30 minutes... How can I send this? In no way... I spent 20 minutes on youtube and still it was not ready... 10 minutes until deadline... In the end.. 10 km trip was easier and faster for the movie to arrive saftely at its destination...

The lesson? Everybody knows it: do things in time... Very easy in theory and very hard in practice..

In the end this morning started with a good news: I will be facilitator at the National Preparation Seminar at the track for newies :) (aka "membrisori") And not only me but also Cata (haha... we can sleep again in the same room, since we're both facis), Topper and Oana (she is the leader :) so she will be at the leadership track)

So after such a news how can you be, but happy? So in the office, in the morning, me and Raluca started a karaoke session which we are going to continue tonight in Coyote... We sang for at least 5 times "Tell Him" (Celine Dion) and so the other people who were in the office were already with headphones in their ears :) I wonder why... :)

I am still enjoying the simple things (although today were some hard "face the truth" moments).. And I will still dream (not in the proper meaning, because I am already sick and tired of dreaming every night) but in the sense of making wishes and seeing the future as pink (or green) as I want.. And in this way, it will actually be like that :)

Moru

p.s.: I attached two pictures: one with Raluca (and no, we were not planning since then the karaoke session :) ) and one with the girls (the latest picture).

Saturday, October 27, 2007

3 more...

... to go abroad through the Exchange Program...

Ale, Beb and Cosmin (in alphabetical order :) )will soon leave in Austria, UK and Belgium... And it seems like people started to leave (I am talking about the first persons that I met in @ and a lot of them are or are about to go in another country).

Although we are preparing for the bye bye party for Ale (and Cosmin) and we are laughing I think it's going to be a little difficult because I cannot imagine that in a week she will leave...

But I am happy happy for her... I'm sure in the end everything is going to be allright (for us, the ones that still stay here) but now, there is this feeling before she is leaving... But we are already preparing the first visit :)

And there is this strange feeling inside... I don't even know if I can describe it... Though it's good that some persons are still here and there is a little bit of stability because this is a vital thing for me>>>

Moru

Sunday, October 21, 2007

Sex and the city night...




Today was a girls' night out... Carrie, Samantha, Charlotte and Miranda decided to go out and enjoy the evening...


We gossipped a lot, we made plans and we ate a delicious dinner... and all of these inspired us...

Output of the evening? We decided to have a lunch in September 2017 in Manhattan, New York City... Until then of course we will have other lunches and dinners together, but you know, we have a vision: Sex and the city 2017 :)

After that, at home, a quick photoshoot was directed by Charlotte... Only some of the pictures will be displayed... The rest... dessert :)

"Carrie"

Friday, October 19, 2007

An evening like all the evenings are in the "real life"

Today was a very "real life" day... and I enjoyed it a lot...

After lunch and a meeting a had to go to University Square and after solving some problems I decided to walk instead of taking the subway or a bus (the other reason was because my monthly ticket is not valid anymore..)... And it was a good decision...

It was the middle of the day and I was taking a walk on the main street in Bucharest... People were in a hurry but I was very calm... On my way I bought a book that I am vey anxious to read (Aurora Liiceanu and Alice Nastase - Dinscolo de bine, dincoace de rau: despre iubire). I already read some pages during the 5th edition of the @ BU event calld "Access to Leadership"..

Also on my way back to the office I decided to spoil myslef... Most of the times, for me, spending money on clothes or accessories hides a frustration (or at least I was told so.. And it is kind of true.. I spend money on this kind of things only when I am angry).. Might be the case also now, but I entered one of my favourite shops and found a beautiful dress... I decided not to buy it because I needed another advice (it is a little bit shiny so not quite my style)... But still I was pretty in it..

So after "Access to Leadership" me and Oana decided to go to drink something like nothing in this world would have been planned (no other tasks, no returning home hour, no early wake up the next day)... Topper also joined us... So on our way to the coffee, we stopped again for the dress.. I already had to whom to ask for advice... But the dress was gone..

Still I am happy because I booked the same dress my size in another shop so tomorrow evening I will be trying my new dress with my high heels shoes that I wore only once :) I don't have yet any event planned for wearing them for real, but does it matter for me? NO!

As I said in a prevoius post, I spend money on junk, but on the spot, I am very happy and excited ...

So I spent the evening with Oana and Topper drinking a tea and chatting and it was soooo nice that I even forgot I should have had a skype conversation (sorry Petra)... Laughing and getting fatter (since I was told lately that I lost a lot of weight) with some yummy cakes :)

And instead of sleeping alone (which is something that I hate lately) Oana joined me at my place and we cooked and continued chatting... and at the moment she is reading (she just told me that she likes the fact that I have a lot of magazines at home) and I am writing this post but preparing to read also my new book :)

It was an incredible day... Actually, an ordinary day in which all my attention was towards only one person: ME :) And I will do this again for sure... But I will not plan it... Although for this week there is already planned a "sex and the city" getaway at a fancy restaurant :) (we still have some issues in deciding who is going to be each character from the movie :) )

Life is full of surprises and I adore the positive ones :) And I started to enjoy more and more the simple things...

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Sad days in Macedonia and not only

Two days ago I received a very sad news...

I still remember the first roll call I learned in @ (couldn't dance it at all because I'm not that good at dancing and it took me a while to learn it)... And it is still my favourite ever... Tose Proeski - Pogletaj u mene...

I was talking to Martina at You Can about it and I started singing it (the way I could) and she was surprised I knew the lyrics (in Macedonian)... And the first day at You Can was full of joy because we started it by dancing and singing this roll call..

Unfortunatelly, the sad news is that Tose Proesky died at the age of 26 in a car crash in Croatia...

Lite a candle for him at the following link:

http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/candles.cfm?l=eng&gi=tose

Moru

Monday, October 15, 2007

New Year's Eve Resolution

Although there are still 2 months and a half left until the New Year's Eve and I have no ideea what I am going to do for that party, I already decided what I want to do at 00:00 a.m. : I want to laugh with all my heart...

Last year I was crying exactly at 00:00 a.m. and I realised that the whole year I've been crying even for the most stupid reasons.... So I don't want to make the same mistake for the next year.. Although I might be alone, although I might be with my friends, although I might be with my colleagues... it does not matter that much... And mostly, I don't even care where I will be for the New Year's Eve... as long as I will laugh :)

So if you see me on New Year's Eve, make me SMILE :)


Moru

Sunday, October 14, 2007

First blog entry ... Not an ordinary week...

My first blog ever...

Actually it is the second one but I never got to post on that one. But now, I promise I will update it... And as they say "the beginning is more difficult".

I don't even know what made me start posting exactly today. Maybe the fact that I caught myself talking by myself at home :) Or maybe because that I had an unsual week..

This week was full of good news and it all started with the fortune cookie I chose on facebook some weeks ago that said: "good news is coming to you"... And they arrived...

This week started with a very cool news: I am going to Poland. Not only that I am going to Poland but I will attend a conference for MC VPs Finance from CEE (yes, I addmit, I don't fit the profile) that will be delivered by PWC. So you can imagine I started jumping like a ball ever since I received the news. But people are happy around me because I am happy, although I think I drove them crazy with this news (thanks to them for stll standing me :) ) And so I realized that after storm comes the sun... and it is very bright. So, thank you, Malina...


And then I attended a teambuiding as a facilitator. "Big news" you might say... But this time it was in the corporate sector and it was different but still the same, and I met different people (when I say different I mean different from me... ) and earned my first money. And although they might disappear in two days on all kinds of not important things it is a new thing for me. And anyway I would have accepted to do this even for free because it was a lot of fun (of course during the sessions because during the parties I was sleeping, as usual). I felt very tired at the end although the schedule was not that tight, and I still don't have the answer "why". But it was very very nice... And I really enjoyed it mostly because I wanted to do something different, something that was not planned for ths period...

This is it for today... Tomorow I will have a post about my New Year Resolution...

Happy happy
Moru